2046. EBB to RB
As published in The Brownings’ Correspondence, 11, 101–102.
[Postmark: 29 September 1845]
Then first .. first,—I ask you not to misunderstand—because we do not .. no, we do not .. agree (but disagree) as to “what is your true good” .. but disagree, & as widely as ever indeed.
The other asking shall come in its season .. some day before I go if I go. It only relates to a restitution—and you cannot guess it if you try .. so dont try!—and perhaps you cant grant it if you try—and I cannot guess.
Cabins & berths all taken in the Malta steamer for both third & twentieth of October! see what dark lanterns the stars hold out, & how I shall stay in England after all as I think!– And thus we are thrown back on the old Gibraltar scheme with its shifting of steamers .. unless we take the dreary alternative of Madeira!—or Cadiz!– Even suppose Madeira, .. why it were for a few months alone—& there wd be no temptation to loiter as in Italy.
Dont think too hardly of poor Papa. You have his wrong side .. his side of peculiar wrongness .. to you just now. When you have walked round him you will have other thoughts of him.
Are you better I wonder? & taking exercise & trying to be better? May God bless you! Tuesday need not be the last day if you like to take one more besides—for there is no going until the fourth or seventh, .. & the seventh is the more probable of those two. But now you have done with me until tuesday.
Ever yours, EBB.
Address: Robert Browning Esqre / New Cross / Hatcham / Surrey.
Postmark: 8NT8 SP29 1845 E.
Dockets, in RB’s hand: 60.; + Tuesday Sepr 30. / 3–4½ p.m. .
Publication: RB-EBB, pp. 217–218.
Manuscript: Wellesley College.