2200. RB to EBB

As published in The Brownings’ Correspondence, 12, 47.

[London]

[Postmark: 7 February 1846]

The clock strikes—three,—and I am here, not with you—and my “fractious” headache at the very worst got suddenly better just now, and is leaving me every minute—as if to make me aware, with an undivided attention, that at this present you are waiting for me, and soon will be wondering—and it would be so easy now to dress myself and walk or run or ride—do anything that led to you .. but by no haste in the world could I reach you, I am forced to see, before a quarter to five—by which time I think my letter must arrive. Dear, dearest Ba, did you but know how vexed I am—with myself, with .. this is absurd, of course. The cause of it all was my going out last night—yet that, neither, was to be helped, the party having [been] twice put off before,—once solely on my account. And the sun shines, and you would shine–

Monday is to make all the amends in its power, is it not? Still, still I have lost my day.

Bless you, my ever-dearest.

Your RB

Address: Miss Barrett, / 50 Wimpole St

Postmark: 8NT8 FE7 1846 B.

Docket, in EBB’s hand: 112.

Publication: RB-EBB, p. 441.

Manuscript: Wellesley College.

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