2394. RB to EBB
As published in The Brownings’ Correspondence, 13, 15.
Tuesday. [Postmark: 2 June 1846]
You are the most entirely loveable creature I ever dreamed perhaps might be in a better world—altogether made up of affectionateness and generosity: I do not much fear, now, I shall ever offend you—in the miserable way of giving you direct offence which mortal will & endeavour could avert—(altho’ I speak (by design, on profession) doubtfully about the happiness of the future in some respects, yet I dare be quite bold here, and feel sure, as of my life at this moment, that I shall never do that, ..) but at present I almost love even the apprehension that I may be found out too useless, too unworthy in the end; let it be said so, since I feel it so, my own Ba! I love this, because your dear love seems fit to cover every imperfection of mine: I dare say you do not see them, as you say—but you will perhaps, and then I trust to the love wholly. I want forms,—ways,—of expressing my devotion to you—but such as I am, all is yours.
I will write more to-morrow—the stupid head will not be quiet to-day: my mother’s is sadly affected, too: it is partly my fault for reading … a state to be proud of! Don’t let my frankness do me wrong, however,—the inconvenience is very little, but I was desired to tell you, was I not?– I shall go out presently and get well.
Are you out to-day, beloved? It is very warm,—be careful like the dearest Ba you are! And kiss me as I kiss you .. all except the adoration which is mine indefeasibly–
May God bless you ever for your very own RB.
Address: Miss Barrett, / 50. Wimpole St.
Postmark: 8NT8 JU2 1846 A.
Docket, in EBB’s hand: 197.
Publication: RB-EBB, p. 749–750.
Manuscript: Wellesley College.