Wednesday. Oct. 5.
The bible meeting at Ledbury today. Sorry for it. It is our duty to go; and some allusion may be made to Papa’s absence & the cause of it; & this, I cannot always bear.
No painful allusion, in a very uninteresting meeting: but Mr. Curzon startled me by asking me to go down to his house before I left Ledbury that he might have ten minutes conversation with me. What cd. he mean to say? Papa—Mr. Boyd, glanced across my mind! I am so used to hear what is distressing. I went with Mr. Curzon. He offered me his arm, & we walked very fast before everybody; & when we were safe & silent in his drawing room, he showed me both Miss Gibbons’s letter & his own reply to it. She wishes to be baptized—& to come for that purpose to his house in ten or twelve days.
His object in speaking to me on the subject, which he did with every recommendation to secresy,—seems to be, that he is doubtful about her state—not from his own observations, but from Mr. Boyd’s. I recanted my inconsiderate words of last Sunday—but I shd. be sorry if any recantation of mine, shd. seem to expose Mr. Boyd to any accusation of malice prepense in his charges against her. I am more interested about him, than about Miss Gibbons. Therefore I will write, I think, to Mr. Curzon, to explain my explanation.
A note from Mr. Boyd, to desire me to consult Cruden from [sic] him, on justification, & glorification. A note indeed! Down ONE page; & beginning “my dear Porsonia”!— I shall be convinced at last.
Shall we go to Malvern tomorrow. Henrietta says “Yes”; but she has agreed to dine at the Watts’s, & there is sure to be a difficulty of some kind.
Began a letter to Mr. Curzon.
When will Mr. Boyd begin & finish a LETTER to me?— Not until he changes, AGAIN.
